The unexpected journey

Getting pregnant with Dylan was easy. It had no thought to the process. We were one week pregnant with her when we got married. It was an easy pregnancy. Everything that came after that was hard. This is a story that is not deserving of a medal or pity. It is not a story where we have gone to the ends of the earth to find out why. It is quite the typical story as I have been meeting more and more women with my woes. It is just our story. We had gotten pregnant again when Dylan was 9 months old. We were scared shitless. OMG, 18 months apart. How could we handle two under two? Double the diapers, double the craziness. We had already made some decisions from Dylan's pregnancy and birth that we were going to be gun hoe about this time around. We are going to not find out the gender and have a homebirth. We furiously looked at homebirth midwives and found one we really liked. On our 10 week appointment, our midwife called to tell us that she is at a birth and needed to reschedule. I had found blood about the same time she had called. We called her back to tell her what I had found and she suggested to visit the ER. So we miscarried. I spare you the gory details because they are on another post that I had written at the time. I look back on it now and realize that I did not know how bad a miscarriage could get and I got off easy. I had friends who helped me through it. Thank you again if you are one of many who would read this. I had great support from my family. I had my little girl that I was so thankful to be her mama. I had a wonderful husband that took days off just to be with me. It was a hard at the time but easy in retrospect. Also, I could rationalize it because everyone has at least one miscarriage. Boy was I wrong. December 2011, we found out that we were pregnant again. We were overjoyed but nervous. I called my midwife to tell her that I was pregnant again. She gave me the option of either blind faith wait until the 10 week check up or go for a 6 week ultrasound. We picked the ultrasound. I was not going to lose this baby. Counted the 6 weeks then when in for the check. The baby came in about a week later then it should have been which was a tiny red flag but not a full blown one. Our midwife was out of the country so we started seeing her partner. She was wonderful by the way. Had some blood test that were coming back in red flag mode then did another ultrasound that was Full Red Flag Mode. The baby had a very weak heartbeat and was nowhere near where it should have been development wise. Then the last ultrasound confirmed that we had miscarried another baby. Brokenhearted! The due date was my 29th birthday which I was born on my dad's 29th birthday. We were ready for that baby. So ready! Those questions that everyone woman has were coming back in full swing. Since, we had such a peaceful and natural miscarriage with the first one that we wanted the same thing for this one. I did not want a D&C if I did not have to have it. OMG, Hindsight is so 20/20. The miscarriage officially started on my sister's birthday. It did not stop for 6 weeks. We ended up in the ER after very painful cramping two nights in a row. It was bad. I was begging for a D&C at the ER. I thought that was it but it kept going until I saw a miracle OB. After 6 weeks of bleeding and poor care from my midwife, I was given a recommendation for a wonderful godness of an OB. She was a full service woman. We did blood test, another ultrasound (5 so far!) and was in for a D&C by that friday. My sister dropped everything to be with Dylan that morning. I was so thankful to be done with all that bleeding that I really didn't care that I was going to be having a D&C the very thing, I did not want to begin with. She also recommend that I saw one of her therapist on staff. I was so tired and beat up by that point that I could only recover by seeing someone. She helped me out so much that I was always be thankful. This was one of those life changing moments in a marriage and in life that we are different people now. We took this challenge and it made us so much stronger. I will always be thankful for the help of my husband, family and friends. It had taken me a long time to heal. I could not be happy for all the people who announce pregnancies around the same time, mine was suppose to be born. I liked their post but I was heartbroken. How could they be on their 2nd or 3rd child when I haven't even had mine yet. I had Dylan and was super happy that at least we were able to have one baby. I know most people struggle to even just have the one. I am grateful for her every day. So we were starting to think that we were going to be a one child family. Our MO was always, "let's not try to try". We threw that theory out of the window this past summer. We did try. We failed. We were heartbroken all summer long. Why oh why, now that we are wanting to try for another baby, we were failing at trying to get pregnant. All the other times, we got pregnant without a second thought. But somehow, the plan for us wasn't willing to give up so soon. But that's a story for another day. (note: I am turning the comments off again. This was my personal story that needed to be told. Also, I am not going back to edit it. I want it to be pure.)

New Ultrasound Pictures

There is a head, femur, heart rate and something else. Enjoy :)

Latest Appointment

Today was another ultrasound, the baby is coming in at an estimated weight of 5 pounds. 5 POUNDS can you believe it. So we will see how big this baby is at birth. The heart rate was at 133 beats per minute. I had a posse with me today, nick, my mom, my sister and nick's mommy. The doctor was like whoa, lots of people but she said that she did not care so out of all the appointments thus far. This one was going to be fun at least. I have pictures. I will upload them tomorrow due to having to go to work like now.

Pictures

Myself at 20 Weeks, post yoga, pre-shower





Pictures of the baby at 20 Weeks.

Baby Girl Meiborg

So It looks like there is about a 90% chance of our child being a girl. She was being super stubborn and did not want to show us. She was sitting beach so it was going to make the ultrasound tech unsure about the gender. But yes, she move around at the end of the appointment and the tech was able to make a educated guess that she was a girl. She said that there was nothing sticking out so she is a she. But yes, our child is totally our child. She was stubborn and shy. She did not want to move when the tech need to take certain measurements and pictures. We both had to move her around. I moved my body and the tech move the slide thingy. Then once the appointment was ended she decide to make herself known and stop being so shy. That is how the tech figure out she was a girl. So I have my monthly appointment this Friday and we will go over any findings. But also, the tech said, that she was looking very healthy and no signs of trouble. All good all around.

So now, I am going to making this blog live to all the friends and family today. I will be posting the ultrasound pictures after I get back from yoga and going to throw in the 20 week prego photo as well. So I am not forgetting but yoga starts in about an hour and I still have to get dress.

Big News

So today, we get to see the baby and find out if it is healthy or not. Oh yea, and we get to find out the sex hopefully. Baby, be good for mommy and daddy so we can tell grandma.

We had our 2nd childbirth prep class this past Sunday. It was really good. We watch a few more births. Kinda surreal watching a baby come out of a woman but you know it had been happening for thousands of years. Little freaked still. But hopefully, that will past as time goes by.

I don't know, I just cannot focus on anything today due to the ultrasound in a few hours. So hopefully, after 3pm or so, I will be revealing everything and the blog will be public for the family.

This is the place to go for updates on the pregnancy, baby, baby showers, videos, pictures and random shares I want to have with you all about the baby.

Pictures

So this is the little one at 8 1/2 weeks old. I believe that everyone saw this photo at Christmas. Upon further examination of the photo, the + signs are showing you were the baby is in regards to my uterus. Hopefully, after our appointment next week, We will have a picture of a bigger bean and know the gender. As of tomorrow the baby will be the size of avocado. Thebump.com has a great tracker to see how big the baby will be during the week.


This photo was taken at 11 1/2 weeks the very night I came down with the stomach flu at 2am. So I lost all that weight and the mini-bump the following two days. Very said for me.

Next, we told all the family member which was very exciting. I loved the wide range of reactions, from the congrats/hugs to the what am I suppose to do with this now. Everyone just cracked me up with all that. One of the best Christmas gifts, I have ever given my family members. So now, I am unemployed. Boo. I was going to update the blog earlier this week but I just did not feel like getting around to it. We have signed up for some classes. The childbirth prep, sling and cloths diapers at Be Bye Baby. I am very excited about them.

Also, we have brought a infant car seat already. Here is the link to it. http://www.amazon.com/Graco-SafeSeat-Infant-Seat-Ionic/dp/B000LP7V42/ref=pd_bbs_sr_3?ie=UTF8&s=baby-products&qid=1231541624&sr=8-3

We got it on Tuesday and it has been set-up and out. It was one of those moments where I realize that we are going to be putting a little infant in there. So weird, exciting and scary all at the same time. So I am officially on leave from RVA 3rd level. I really did not want to be dealing with that stress right now. BUT i am going to be helping out with the office and creating an in service to help pass the time before I get another job.

Let's see, since this blog is all about the baby, I am trying to think of other baby news. We brought a whole bunch of onesis the other day all about baseball. Because even if we have a boy or a girl, the baby will be a CUBS fan. That is nick's mission in life and to make the child listen to Tom Waits.

To end things, I do have a recent belly shot of me.
At Almost 16 weeks. Shot today :)